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Death, etc…

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          A few years ago I was someone who would’ve told you I didn’t have any dreams for myself. I’d say I was excited to support other people and their dreams but I just didn’t have any myself. That was a very different time because fast forward 5 years and I’m overflowing with dreams. There are so many things I want to make and so many things I want to make people feel. I know a lot had to happen for me to see life in a new way, but one of the changes that sparked this progress was some spiritual realizations. I know to some it sounds ridiculous and to some this sounds completely normal, but I’d never considered that my Christian ideal of heaven - with its gold streets and big mansions - was not a guarantee until just a few years ago. I was deep into a culture that didn’t just teach that as a belief you could choose, but as a given fact. The time we had on this earth was, to me, just a short blip before we got to the “real stuff”. This was a time to keep our heads down, say our pra

Why I'm gonna start talking about Autism

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          Last Spring we found out Corey [my husband] has autism. That doesn’t sound to everyone like it’d be good news, but it has surprisingly been one of the most helpful things that’s happened in our marriage. When we found out, if felt like a massive relief of pressure and one huge answer to a million tiny questions. Let’s rewind a bit. Right before Corey and I got into a relationship, someone close to both of us asked me “so why won’t you just be with him? Do you think you’re too good for him?” and that question upset me because the answer was yes, but it wasn’t because I actually was too good for him, or that he wasn’t good enough. I was wildly into him. I loved so many things about him. We seemed perfect together. It was for a whole lot of reasons, some that were based in fear and what it would look like to others for me to be in a relationship with him. That might sound mean, but I had never been in a romantic relationship with anyone, and the idea that my identity would be